Anorexic, But Not So Much

When I moved back home 4 months ago, I was a normal 20 year old college kid. I'd eaten one too many taquitos at Whataburger and it showed. I was finally comfortable with my body the way it was. I had curves in the right places, and I wasn't overweight. After just one month of living with my parents, I had lost 17 pounds, dropping down to a mere 90 pounds. People at work started making anorexic jokes, then my friends up in College Station saw me and decided something had to be done. It's not that I didn't want to gain weight or eat, it's just that I had no appetite whatsoever. If I did try to eat, I couldn't keep it down. I'll never forget asking my ex-boyfriend if he had some bread and sandwich meat for me to eat at 2am.
"You didn't eat dinner? Wow, you must be starving."
"No, I'm not hungry at all. But I have to eat."
I didn't tell him that I couldn't remember the last time I had eaten a full meal. After that weekend, I told myself that I would never let that happen to me again. So far, I've gained 8lbs of it back. I noticed that the combination of no sleep and meager food affected me greatly. My performance at work slid downhill quickly. I couldn't concentrate in school, and I could barely carry trays full of food. I was tired all the time, and which escalated into more arguments with my mom about my laziness.
I would look on the internet for some sort of help to get for this problem. But every anorexic website I looked at had to do with the psychological problem that the person did not want to gain weight. That wasn't my problem. I finally figured out that my appetite came back full force whenever I was at work, away from home. So the cooks helped me out and started sneaking me "Scooby snacks". When I get out of here, I hope to work with people having the same problem. Parental issues can be a huge impact on someone's life, and I think there should be more out there on it.

I have the house to myself for a few more hours, so I'm gonna catch a nap and maybe make myself a ham and cheese croissant. Catch ya later.